Hello, hi. Welcome back guys.
In usual Frankie fashion, I’ve been thinking about the future a lot recently. With 2019 still marking a whole fresh start and outlook to life, I’ve started to think of some things I’d like to accomplish. Both private and generic stuff, some of which I highlighted in the last post – here. However, there’s a little hiccup in my plans which stems from constantly dashing myself into what I like to call “a season of doubt”.
In this season, I start to doubt my capabilities to do things. I start comparing myself to the progress of others, and I constantly feel like I’m being left behind in this race that I’ve created for myself. Hence, the “season of doubt”. At what point this season comes and goes varies from occasion to occasion but in most cases, it’s when I see those around me seem so…put together.
Everyone upon first glance seems like they know what they’re doing in life. They’ve set out these goals, they’ve executed and accomplished them all in the space of a week while the most you’ve done is binge-watch some new series on Netflix. It’s in this case you start to feel like you’re not doing enough, and I can most definitely raise my hand to feeling like trash in those circumstances.
However, (and you all already knew I was going to say this ) everyone’s faking it. We’re all doe-eyed travelling through life with pure innocence. No-one knows what the future holds or what it could potentially mean for our life path, so we’re all kind of just riding the wave. This means that there is no reason to compare your journey to someone else’s.
This is the concept I’m struggling to grasp but we’re getting there so we move. Apologies in advance, you guys are going to be seeing that phrase a lot from me this year.
Like I was saying, none of us have a clue about the future so that usually means people are in different stages of life. Whether it be the “figuring out and stressing” stage, or the “I’m gonna roll with the wave and see what happens” stage. Currently, I’m in the “figuring out”stage and so seeing people in the “riding wave” stage? Definitely makes me feel inadequate and like I’m not doing enough.
But I’m not alone in the figuring out stage, there’s a whole bunch of us that need to let ourselves be known so people don’t think this life thing is easy. Life no be small thing oh!
Regardless, the point I’m trying to make is that it’s ok to be doubtful of yourself at some points in life. It becomes an issue when you compare yourself to others in completely different stages to you. Stay in your lane and focus, and with that I’m sure your little “season of doubt” will swiftly come to an end.
see ya’ll in the next one.
with all my love,