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Hello, hi. Welcome back guys.
This one might get a little personal and mushy which is definitely different from the posts I’ve been putting up recently, but we’re going to roll with it.
Today’s topic: the art of “self-love”
meaning regard for one’s own well-being and happiness.
Last week was rough for me. I was in my feelings, feeling very insecure and just trash overall which inspired me to write something on self-love. Something as simple as self-love didn’t come naturally to me, it still doesn’t to be quite honest but I guess I could say I am making the conscious effort to do so. If you read my little letter to myself (you can find that – here), you know that insecurities are something I’ve dealt with for a long time and still continue to deal with. I don’t think insecurities are something you can ever completely heal from, I see them as a little scar that refuses to heal and any rough movement causes it to open up and bleed. Eventually, the scar does start to heal but the cycle repeats, rough movement = it opening up again.
I’m a strong advocate for prioritising yourself and your mental state because I see that as an act of self-love. Doing all you can to ensure you’re at your best. That’s another thing that didn’t come naturally to me up until recently. There have been many a time where I’ve let myself spiral into this dark place and I’ve had no care for my appearance, my mood or my mental state. I just didn’t care enough.
I think that’s why I care so much about self-love because I realised how important it was. You know when you feel trash so you put no effort into your appearance and then feel even more trash? Yeah, little things like that really showed me how important it was to look after yourself regardless. Sometimes those small little things like dolling yourself up can completely change up a trash week you’ve had. As I’m typing this I have a whole face mask on my face, a little Peach tea in my Winnie the Pooh mug and a positive vibe all over my room. I feel content.
This academic year, I’ve decided to take Sunday’s off as my own little consistent act of self-love. I aim to get all Uni work, blog posts and just general life stuff sorted before Sunday so I can just have that day for well? Me. It’s such a small little thing but it’s made all the difference. Majority of that day, I might not even do anything. I may just literally take a couple of naps and read some books but that’s just it. I’m doing the things I want to do, free from a schedule and free from obligations and it feels great.
Of course, self-love runs so much deeper than just doing up face mask and maybe wearing makeup to cheer yourself up. Self-love involves accepting the flaws you can’t change, and making an effort to change the ones you can. It involves seeing your insecurities as just that, insecurities. Things that are not concrete proof of you as a person, they’re just a little scar that majority of us are stuck with.
There’s this quote on self-love:
“If I asked you to name all the things you love, how long would it take for you to name yourself?”
That was a rude awakening for me when I realised it would take me a very hot while before I even thought of me. That’s when I decided to work on that, so I hope this quote does the same for you. I hope it makes you look inward and decide that you will live this life as only you, so learning to love that you is vital for your existence.
As for me and my self-love journey?
We getting there.
I’ve mastered the small things like doing things that make me happy and taking time away when I need it. Those aren’t even small things, growth is growth regardless. For me though, I’m looking at the grand scheme of things and deciding I’m not doing enough. I haven’t reached that ultimate level of self-love. I still go through those rough periods of self-doubt and not feeling like a beautiful queen but I think the primary thing is that I’m working on it so yeah, onwards and upwards guys.
Remember, our yé is different xx
with all my love,